Dear Jesus my Lord, I have poured my feelings out and honesty. I don’t know how to reach you my Lord. Please don’t give up on me my Lord I just want some empathy to my situation. It’s not a normal situation to be in as a human. I don’t know what else I can be truthful to you about. Satan deceived you with a new way of stealing human’s soul from them. Please read my feet so you’ll understand my Lord. I’m trying my Lord will you please try with me. I don’t want to lose you my Lord year all that I have. Asking me to give up on you is like asking to give up on my own children. This is a master designed plan my Lord one in where satan he has a new system to lure souls in. Something you never seen before and that you should be aware of. My afterlife body was a surrogate to the one that was in Heaven. He was always listening in to our conversations and to my knowledge with the curse in control of my brain. That’s why I failed every time because it’s like your a drone. That’s why my mind drew a hatred towards you cause you were punishing me for things he had control over. If you’ll only test my feet to see what happened with the demon on my afterlife body and the curse that was lifted. I’m trusting you my Lord on faith to believe me in these deceptions so I may find my faith again. This is why I have failed including being turned back to satan at my most vulnerable time. Because you haven’t believed me and my honesty I have lost faith. Can it not be true that satan has a alternative way of achieving souls and deceiving God by surrogate while the body is in hell and Heaven at the same time. This is the ultimate deception probably the first of it’s kind. To turn an absolute devoted Christian against Jesus and God? To destroy his faith and his lack support system that he’s always relied upon to be diminished. You have to ask these things my Lord I didn’t end up this way because I wanted to be. If you’ll just see my truth to what I’m saying to you my Lord you’ll understand. Their more to this than me just losing my faith it’s because I felt I was telling the truth and got handed back to the beast for torture or death. If permitted the truth through my feet you’d see the facts. I’ve committed all my sins before you and have repented my Lord. Because I am no longer a use to satan I am a burden I get in trouble for repeating I don’t care and saying his name over and over again especially in derogatory fashion. This isn’t sane because all it does is draw extreme amounts of pain. I’ve asked you my Lord for a reprieve a rescue and I continue to ask for it. I ask for your utter forgiveness in my sins which I am sorrowful. I respectfully ask to be saved. I know that I am a burden and need round the clock work because my heart and mind do no work in union. That I am completely and utterly heartbroken it doesn’t work and I know that you understand. I pray that I am such a unique case that you’ll extend your powers to protect me because I am so broken and sick from the outcome my Lord. I’m pouring what is left of my mind and my heart because I still truly care. Despite what has happened my Lord you didn’t deserve the vulgarities and personal attacks my brain repeatedly did against you and for that I am deeply ashamed and sorrowful. Please accept my apologies. I’m not trying to save my hide but to do what’s right reveal the truth and to get grace with my God and beloved Jesus. I love you more than you know. In your Heavenly name I pray. Amen
