Hope

Dear Jesus my Lord, I didn’t get here by accident I was steered here by satan. My thoughts and control are all by his design. A plan for me to continually fail. My Lord please let me have your ears. I seek cause it’s what is right please know that satans deception is alive and well. That I use your name Lord in vein the unholiness of unholy. I do not do this intentionally I know my mind is held captive under a curse that satan controls. Every time I’m in the presence of the Lord I fail. The logical explanation is the power and control and deception he has over me. It’s the same of me saying I don’t care over and over again in hell it’s his mind he’s poisoned me Lord. I am sorry for being a complete disaster. Please save me my Lord. I’m on my last stretch of life my Lord my body is shutting down. I’m putting my faith in you Lord that you’ll save me. I give up my Lord no matter what I try to do right I get wrong. They’re is mo saving me because of my sick brain. I am doomed my Lord I just thought you could reverse the affects. Am I beyond saving my Lord? I’m saddened that I’ll have to live in eternity with out you. I started this fight over four years ago and I still stand fighting it with you my Lord. I don’t want to give up and I don’t want to lose you my Lord. Please heal me Lord for I am sick I need you please save me. I have no chance at making this my Lord without your help I don’t want to leave my children behind my Lord not like this. I respect and praise you my Lord more than anything despite what has been programmed into my mind. If you follow my story Lord from when it started you’ll find that I had a curse in my mind and was possessed by a demon in my afterlife body. Preventing me from being killed by you and the devil always tracking my position. The curse and the demon went way back when I was in Heaven and started using your name in vein and I was dropped to sub earth. And the devil tracked me down. Now it’s in my sub conscience and every time I’m with you it takes your name in vein. I’m not creating an excuse my Lord I’m telling the truth that I was setup for failure. Please believe me oh Lord if you need to test my feet. I know I don’t have much credibility with you my Lord and my pecking level is at zero. But please analyze this carefully my Lord that satan has a highly equipped system to steal souls with the aid of a unique curse which was performed over me while I was under heavy sedation after breaking my neck. If you’ll just give me a chance my Lord we could beat this. Please my Lord don’t leave me on unanswered ears. You know that satan is capable of such elaborate rouses. I wouldn’t be speaking of this my Lord in full detail if it we’re not the truth. I just feel my Lord that you think it’s free will that I say your name in vein when I know it was programmed into my mind. I’m sorry my Lord but that is just how I feel. Lord I bring up some valid facts to my statements. And I’m offering for the truth to be revealed by reading my feet for the curse and all the other things that happened to me. I’m praying to be normal again and I think this would save me my Lord. I know we tried this on one specific occasion and it failed because I was sick with hell. But I’m pretty sure I can control my mind if we were able to do this again my Lord. Please don’t abandon me my Lord for I have not given up on you my Lord. Despite what my mind says I still love you and the Heavenly Father with all that is in me. In your Heavenly name I pray. Amen