Help me

Please pray for me to have the courage that I have always had I am greatly thankful for all of the small and higher blessings that god has given me he has so gracefully done so much in my life but suddenly I have done so gritstone with pain that I allowed judging of others to gain weight in my pain that it has become so intense anger I never get anger I sustain pleasure when my enemies attack me cause I know that it’s coming from pride and evil that I do not worship I have allowed others to try to judge me and bring me down to a pit I ask for forgiveness! I know that I am a truthfully minded person that has never judged anyone but each day I am turning into a negative person that I never was I have always been great full and know that the attacks of the devil in gods word through Christ that no weapon of words can destroy me but I am asking the king that I need a new path as the one I am in I cannot control and what I cannot control I need to let go I beg that god hears my cry if pain and aging I have lost hope and starting to see no good come from any of my efforts I ask that you pray for me to let go of the word other people try to destroy me and I have always ignored this but I am alone and understand that this is apart of the devils planning to kill destroy and to have no mercy on me, please pray that god gives me the courage that I had to bring my hope back restore me and bring justice to those that have used their toung to destroy me and to bring me down! I know that all wisdom comes from the holy tabernacle of god and through Christ all is possible and nothing can work without him, I am asking confidently that Jesus Christ brings me out of this place of no hope and seeing no future for me anymore I am so weak I pray that Jesus Christ helps me to heal me and to bring back my hope that I have! My head and hands are intense pain from the stress and anger and I cannot take this I try to pray and pray for healing I ask that Jesus takes these thoughts that are trying to destroy me I do not being my self down nor do I knowingly try to harm others this time I truly trust that god says through Christ that he has a plan to prosper me not for evil that he would never bring me down and attack me and make me feel worthless I need a new career path I am trying to find a new job that I can without the worship of demons and judgment and constant anger bulling and pride my head to a hurting and I have no hope left I know what his words tells me but. Allow prideful people that have no in idea of your word to wish me death evil and attacks this is not coming from his word that he will sustain me never forgive sake me he is my wisdom truth and mercy please pray that my entergy is restored and my train of thought is healed back to what GOD created me to be. I am trying to find a new job and I am stressed out about this do not like the job I am at this t is so hostile and am confident that this person is targeting me constantly trying to get me fired I cannot work like this I am so scared and never felt alone I am wondering why this person had the time to try to destroy me and tell me I am stupid cannot learn that I am nervous un confident I have never in my life tried to tell some what I think of them I ask the god to please help me find a non oppressive place to work! This is such a horrible feeling to have I am attacked and the negativity is so bad that my hope to look for new employment is scaring me that I am going to go through this again again and again. I beg your Jesus to plead for me to GOD for a miracle. Please hear me please open a new door and please I do not want to die why would I even try if u did not believe in my self? Please pray for me that breakthrough and healing cover me and god blessings cover me with humility repentance and for forgiveness healing of my mind soul and my body, dread this job and cannot use my skills at all I feel like I am in a jail cell number and depending on nothing I feel worse and worse each day and am surrender to Jesus Christ I surrendered this all it my problems my pain my humanity and I repent for allowing judgment of evil to destroy me please pray that these people have god’s judgment! Please pray that I submit my resume to a positive review and gain a linger longer life for healing so I can use my brain and skills I am so down help me !