Heavenly Father, Jesus son of the Most High God and Holy Spirit : I acknowledge you as God and Creator of the Heavens and Earth, my God and my Redeemer. I come to You in tears with a heavy heart and sadness over my life. My life is so sad and I am in a state of deep depression. I come to You, Holy Spirit, Comforter to ask that You'll wipe my tears and bring comfort to my soul that is crying and in distress. I believe You can do anything and there's no limit to Your power. I pray that You help my unbelief because I've been asking for many years now and my faith has grown weak, and I don't know whether it's a no or a yes or I should stop asking you that you'll satisfy the desire of my heart for marriage and motherhood. Remember Jesus, I surrender the desires of my heart to You years ago, asking You to empty me and feel my heart with the desires that You have for me. I come to beg to You to please fulfill the desire for marriage and motherhood that have grown stronger and stronger over the years. My heart is broken over a very long period of loneliness and isolation. You see these desires for a life long companion through a christian marriage and the desire to nurture children, grow a family of my own. I present You the desires and ask that You will fulfill these desires. Please, Holy Trinity, please hear my cry and just like YOu heard Hannah when she was crying to You asking for a child. Please hear my prayer and distress just like you heard Isaac praying and asking for Rebecca to bear a son. Please, hear my cry just as you heard Abram when He told you 'Lord, what's the point of having all that you promise if I don't have a child?.' Please, hear and answer my prayers just as You comforted Sarah's after she experienced such terrible losses and even contemplated suicide; You comforted her and blessed her with marrying Tobias and making them parents. Please, hear the cry of my soul just as you heard Hannah's cry to You. You said it was not good for Adam to be alone and You blessed him with the blessing of a life long partner in Eve, and blessed them with children. Father, You know the longing of my soul for a goodly husband and father to our children. Please, hear my cry. Although I am 46 and still single, I know there is nothing too difficult, too complex or too far gone for You, Holy Trinity. You are the giver and the sustainer of life. I cry out to You because where else should I go? To whom shall I go if not to You, Abba Father? You have the power to create anything out of nothing. YOU ARE GOD! I've been praying that You preserve my fertility window, heal my uterine adenomyosis and I know there is nothing impossbile to You. You made a way for Tobias to meet Sarah; you made a way for Abraham' servant to find Rebecca for Issac and even more You made a way through the Red sea for your people to cross and bring them to the promise land. Father, please forgive my sins, and anything that I have done that may cause me to prevent me from receiving Your blessings. Please, please, do not let me die in the wilderness as the generations that did not get to see the promise land. Please, forgive my sins. Please, bring delivrance in me as you deliver Sarah from the devil that killed her husbands. I confess and repent of fear, doubt, double mindedness. I confess and repent of all of my sins. I confess and repent of the fact that past traumatic and heartful events have caused me to have fear of men that approach me. I confess and repent of wanting my way or having an ideal of what should the man that I would like to marry sould look like; Father, I surrender my will to Yours. Holy Spirit , please keep me obedient and continously surrender my will to You.
All the creation proclames that You are JEHOVAH, the GREAT I AM. I am so aware that I am old for motherhood, but I believe in You who opened Sarah's womb when she was 90 and Elisabeth's womb while she was barren, and the Shunite woman while her husband was old. There is nothing that is impossible to You, JEHOVAH. Please, redeem the time, years, blessings that I lost through sins or evil's work; please restore what the devil stole, killed or destroyed in or from me, in Jesus' name. Please answer my prayers and see the deep and excrutiating pain of singleness and motherlessness that I have been experiencing for years now.
And, Father, give me Your grace to sustain me whether You grant me these desires or not. I am crying but Father, if that's not Your will for me, as I asked many years ago when I surrender my will to you, please remove them from my soul; I can't do that by myself because it's a cry and a need that comes from my very being. As a woman, You created me in such a way that I desire companionship, intimacy and nurturing a child within my womb. I present all to You. In Jesus' name I ask and pray. Amen
For my children, and the world as a family, to love and obey the holy Trinity.
Ben Joe Dani