Dear God,
First of all, I would like to thank you for holding my hand all throughout this nursing journey. Thank you for your guidance, for giving me strength and courage. Thank you for being by my side all the time. For all the times I was having anxiety, you never left my side. I still cannot believe that I have reached the end, I finished nursing school, after such a long journey. I’m so proud of myself. I’m so happy that I finally made my kids and my parents happy. I could tell that they were all so proud of me, especially my dad. I really worked so hard for them.
Graduation was very memorable. I thought that I was going to be anxious and nervous, but I was not at all. I was actually excited and very happy. I was glad my friends were by my side, and it really made me feel not nervous at all.
I was happy… but deep down… I was broken. My heart is broken, God. My parents are not on good terms right now. My mom is going through a crisis, and it really affected everybody. It created a huge problem, and I don’t know how to deal with it. It really makes me so sad and angry at the same time. I was thinking, why now? Why did it happen at the time of my graduation? That week was special to me. It was the moment I’ve been waiting for. And I really decided this achievement to my parents. I was so disappointed. God, please help me fix it… please help my parents to be ok…. To be on good terms again. I don’t want my dad leaving and going back to the Philippines. I want things to be ok and for them to work things out. Whatever evil that happened, I know that good will always prevail. I love them both very much.
It has been more than a month and things are not so well. I wish things would be back to the way it was… when my parents are ok, living together and talking to each other. But in the midst of my studying for NCLEX, I’m still heartbroken inside of me. My heart feels shattered into pieces. I have dreamt of the time when we are all going on vacation together as a family. I have dreamt of taking my parents somewhere nice after I finished school. But that dream is gone. And that leaves me broken. My heart is full of sadness instead of joy from my success. How can I be happy and celebrate my success when my family is broken?
God, I’m not losing hope. I hope that someday my dad finds it in his heart to forgive my mom. I hope that he will realize that my mom was a victim, got scammed and not to hurt him. I hope that they will work it out and he will finally come home. I hope that my mom learned her lesson and learn to gain his trust again, our trust. Please God…make my family whole again. Heal their hearts…. Heal our hearts….
God, also please heal my well being… I know that my health is not 100% in good shape. Whatever that is, please heal my body… My kids need me… I still need to live a little longer. I still want to make good memories with my family. I hope that what I’m feeling on my back is nothing serious. I hope that I can still heal my sleep apnea and I hope that I don’t have any heart issues. Please take care of my dad and mom too. My kids, my sister and my friends… please keep everyone safe and healthy.
God, please help me pass my NCLEX exam… I cannot let this obstacle ruin my dream as I have sacrificed so much over the years. I really need to provide better and support my kids without financial hardship any longer.
God, please give me the courage, intelligence, focus, and sharpness of memory to recall what I have studied. Please help me calm my nerves to stay relax and focus and not be anxious during the exam. I really want to pass the NCLEX exam the first time and not take it again. I want to be able to work soon because I really need more income to support my kids. I have always been struggling financially and I really want my financial hardship to end. God, I know you will not let me fail…I know that you will always be by myside holding my hand always…You are my hope, my rock, my courage, my strength, my light, and my savior. Thank you for all the blessings…. I love you with all my heart God… forever…
Dear God heal our Melo fully and prompt so he can regain his quality of life with your divine guidance.
Karmelo Mason