God I pray that you please, eventually will have mercy on me and will help me in my extremely difficult situation. The last 4 to 6 years are really horrible, especially the last 4 years. 6 years ago I lost the best father, although not my biological father, he was the best, a blessing, but now he is gone and I am alone. I recovered after his dead, had an internship, a part time job and met a boyfriend whom I wanted to marry, but on 20.03.2020 Covid restrictions came and during that year of 2020 I have lost everything, my internship, my work and my boyfriend. Since then I am really alone and in "hell". Hashem I need that you and Jeshua your Son will help me out of this horrible situation of being single, alone, unemployed and stuck. I need you to send me the Holy Spirit to guide me out and also a person who will help me and support me. Preferably a new boyfriend who would love me and marry me or some people who would be kind enough to help me.
What I need is:
1. A good husband.
2. A good work.
3. Good health.
4.To leave the place I am for a new and a better place.
5. A new church community.
6. Counselling for my past trauma.
Hashem I cannot live any more in the current situation I am living.I am very unhappy, very stressed and I am getting sick.I cannot cope any longer with the painful, horrendous circumstances I am living in. I ask you, if you really love me, then please help me. Help me to start a new life with my new husband, new friends, new church community and a new job where I can be happy and use my talents. I am asking you so long for help and the help is not comming. Please God let your help reach me, please hear my cry and answer me. However if you cannot or don't want to help me for what ever reason then I ask you to please end my life in this world. I honestly cannot live any longer under the current circumstances I am forced to live.I cannot bear the heavy burdens I am carrying, especially the burden of singleness, loneliness, being alone, unemployed and childhood trauma and abuse any longer. I honestly need your help and deliverance. I believe Hashem that you are the Almighty God and I really believe that you can create a new and happy life for me, full of love, friendships, peace, fulfilment and joy. I still believe that in your power you can send me a good and loving husband, a good job and a good working and church community. Please in Yeshua's name do it. And I am asking you, if you really cannot do it for whatever reason, then please end my life and take me to Heaven, because dead is better for me than this life I am currently living. I am actually not living, I am just existing.I have had really bad luck in my life. Please make me lucky and answer my prayer.My life has gone wrong since the day I was concieved, but with your help I believe that my life can become good. I believe in your help God, I believe in Jeshua's miracles, please may He do them in my life. May this horrible situation end.I really ask for this in Jeshua's name and from the depths of my hearth and soul. Thank you Hashem for answering my prayers speedily. Amen.
