Please Lord I have come from a family that has a genetic line of serious mental illness and alcoholism. Suicides, early deaths due to drinking. I myself have suffered severely by mental illness since early childhood and then substance abuse starting in my teens to deal with it. I feel like I’m waking up and seeing these patterns in my family that have never been spoken of and see what has been happening for decades. I have made the decision to do whatever is necessary to stay well but I have had anger towards God for the neglectful and abusive childhood that I was exposed to. I want to understand the power of his love and believe it exists but then I slide back to anger and frustration again, I don’t want to live out the rest of my adult life bitter . My mother is very ill, I have an aunt and an uncle who are currently dying from the effects of alcoholism. I want to stay grounded and believe and forgive and to allow love and peace back into my life. I know God is good and I believe that but I feel stuck and very sad . I just want peace and happiness. Material things are not what I care about as they are meaningless to me when I am miserable.
To cleanse my husband's mind and heart. To remove negativity or distractions that hinder his love for me. To fill his thoughts with clarity
Daniel