God, PLESASE HELP ME! So many prayers, st. masses, novenas, and you are not even silent but yet add further and further pains. The traitors and manipulators are well but me and my unbaptised, ill mom are suffering despite all the prayers. Traveling to Lourdes, Padua, San Giovanni Rottondo and – nothing. Only disappointments, yet grown scepticism of my mom and my almost lost belief. More than year and half since the betrayal by Dominika and then cowardice and hypocrisy of Stepan who I have been considering my friend for almost 22 years, manipulating by Petra, mad behavior of Libor… Were my sins so deep that I and my mom deserve so deep and long punishment? Are the rotten fruits of that all, all the disappointments of our hopes in you, God, st,. Virgin or even others in my case, are these rotten fruits any good in Your eyes? Does these all have any good purpose? How can we believe in your power and, especially, in your Love? I´m down, my God. I tried hard. But now, I don´t now where to go, what to do. I see emptiness in my future, emptiness and fear. I am sinner, but I think it is yet strenghten if I see no help from You.
Dear God, after all that, after all my attempts, after all my disappointments, please, finish the period of our heaviness in our souls, period of disappointed hopes, period od pains yet added to our crosses which we have been carrying already before this terrifying time which started since 23rd February 2023.
Dear God, please show us your power, your love, your even existence, and become the God of Restoration with help and healing of the pains which my mom carried even before this date. We have no other chance than you, God. Our hope in you almost died. Please, bring resurrection and light and life where we see death and dark. Grant us happiness, calm and love in our hearts, forgiving from our hearts to those who caused our sufferings in the heavy period.
God, please save us!
Thru Jesus, our Lord I pray. Amen.
I am praying for God to heal me of a disease and I am also asking God to bless my business so that I
Clarissa